"When I Can’t Do What I’m Supposed To Do"

When I started this blog three weeks ago, not only did I promise to update it every now and then, I also swore to myself to start doing the things that I need to accomplish – in my studies, in my organizations (KILOS!, KALIPI, Tabanog, SK…) and in my personal life!

However, whenever I begin to “reform” the complexities in every aspect of my being, for unknown reasons, I seldom achieve my planned purpose – to have a “desirable” end. Instead of a tangible outcome, I ended up with nothing but plain regrets.

I don’t know if it’s an opaque disease or a personal impairment but I’m definitely sick and tired of it. I already don’t want to put my word on the things which I plan to fail in the future nor do I like to tarnish my not-so-proven credibility. The way it is affecting my already chaotic life makes my world senseless. Figuring out what’s wrong with the way I perceive things also add to the grave burden my shoulder is carrying achingly.

For the people out there, I need help! . . . Help me to get rid off all the atrocities I am experiencing….Help me to be free from the senseless world I’m in. . . . Help me to avoid my self-destruction. . . . HELP ME!